My head wants to explode right now and i want to die too

Maybe, the title above is too scary. But, if you see me right now. You'll trust me. Hhhh, ya ALLAH i want to die and die. That is because all the tests should i have done, all the lessons that made me almost crazy and plus with my mood isn't good right now. Again and again i want to tell "What shoud i do??" You make me going crazy, sure. I'm just a student and i must study, study and study. What the hell??!! I'm so so sorry. But, here i am mom. I'm just a kid who wants to be a happy girl. Always pray for me, mom. I LOVE YOU